The StoRy oF BlUeEeE....: it not easy be 'Me'(bukan mudah untuk jadi diri saya)

hari-hari seperti biasa dilalui oleh seorang remaja berumur 15..yeh memang sudah jadi lumrah kehidupan remaja happy..lonjak sane terkinja sini..itu memang diakui..remaja tiada tangungjawab lain selain belajar dan taat kepada ibubapa...dan paling penting..remaja perlukan perhatian dan kasih sayang..kajian saintifik pun cakap mcm tu beb..hmm tetapi hari2 yg dilalui oleh seorang insan ini lain pula ceritanya..ibubapa jauh bekerja..ibu saudara turut sibuk bekerja..tinggal dirinya sendiri...dia mengambil keputusan untuk tinggal bersama rakannye buat sementara waktu..untuk menenangkan fikiran..yeah itu cara terbaik...tentang kasih sayang mmg boleh campak tepi tapi tentang dunia percintaan sukar kot...remaja biasalah kata orang otak tak cukup matang..tapi bagi ku otak hati dah cukup matang untuk menyayangi seseorang..bercakap tentang menyangi seseorang..yeh tentu sekali bagi korang nak lupekan orang yg korang sayang susah kan?samelah ngan admin...kadang2 terluka..tapi satu je yang admin dapat tengok kat diri remaja nie..mereka suka berselindung..tak pernah nak mengaku cakap,terus terang,tidak berahsia...ini menimbulkan satu perasaan mcm nak mengamuk seperti lava dia gunung2 yg berada di banjaran hilmalaya yang nak meletus tuh..haa mcm tulah..haihh..rasa curious tuh mmg teramatlah sgt..
let talk about life..so far everything is good..exam is finish....finish?...goshhhhhhhh!!!!!
exam is finish dude!!..like many of teenagers they will enjoy these day..until the day we get the result..kabooom!...as the bomb fall to the ground..hmm i hope everything going smooth and i will get an excellent result soon...hmm today my life become more misrable..yeah something is incomplete and i dont know what it is...im the only one who looking for a dream yeah sometimes i laying in the bed thinking someday i will married her and we ll have a kid and start a happily ever after life..yeah kindda like that..haha sometimes i wonder if she could accept me..yeah like she will miss me like i do or she will love me like i do..yeah kindda like that..i really hope so..but in life something we wont get is what we plan to have..its alright..god know the best...btw he the greatest i should trust and pray ask from him..i cant give up like this..im not weak! ..yeah im not weak.

I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

i should proud of my self..because now i am strong enough to face the world..im no longer an emo teenager who always give up whenever got problem..nahh..im not,now im megat..the brave and the independent teenagers...i always do what i think i should do..i believe in myself..there nothing to be afraid of beside god.,,,im never going down..i will never give up..i will fight and pray to achieve my goals :)

i guess that all what i gonna write..thank you for now..see you later..take care..enjoy this days for pmr candidate.have fun :)

p/s:ineedheriloveheriwantedhersomuch:)

god help me it hard for me to live without her,

i dont want her to be far away from me..

i love her so much :/