a story that never be told

im imagine,im sitting here while enjoy my super deleciato coke and eating burger and watch this beautiful scene... yes,this is fuji mountain..isnt it beautiful?..haha,k let continue...people might think im enjoying my meal while watching the beautiful scenes when actually im not..in that time i was thinking about a person..a person who i care,which is mean to me,the one that i love.these question keeps playing on mind*right side of my brain*i.'what r u doin right now',have you eat',are you okay','are you happy?'..yeah kind of that quoestion keep playing in my mind...meanwhile on the other side of my brain was thinking about this,'did you love me,like i do,did you ever thinking of me, like i do?,did you miss me,like i do?..yeah kind of that... after having my meal,i wash my hand and go on the other side and sitting under a tree..again the qouestion keep playing on my mind..yeah i got it!..i cant even stop thinking about her,why?i just dont know,whenever i alone relaxing my mind,which mean,im resting.she always come to my mind,why?.i dont know..hmm.been feelin lose cant find a word to say,spending all my time and stuck in past memories..try to forget you but i cant....hmmm..It's hard to fight these feelings,I've never opened up to anyone since i give this hope to you..I'm confident,But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you,and say it gently I knew you could see right through me,I was hopeing that you could see.I would give my final breathe to make you understand what my feeling towards you and prove it that this not a joke.. ............ ............... it seem so hard,now im give up,you will never understand,,you will never know me,better i remain silence..try to forget you but i cant..to forget you is like to cut off my heart and putit into a bowl and throw it from the top of the mountain,yeah exactly...haa~hopeless,speecless there nothing i can do now..try to find a new start,start a new life..make a new begining..try to smile be happy enjoy this life while i can..try to see all beautiful scene like this one.'Fuji moutain'wahhh~.eat as many chocolate and icecream..drink as many coke as i can..yeahh enjoy my life..its better than wait, hehe,now i try to smile,try to be happy,try to get the strenght,try to enjoy this moment while i can..^_^ confession=i stil love you,but i just cant prove it,i dont know how to prove and show it,.. but i want you to know that im still care about and love yahh..^_^ -mmd.peacemaker-